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Tuesday, March 17th, 2009
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Friday, February 2nd, 2007
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i've been dating my girlfriend for almost 3 months now, i thought we've been getting along good, but apparently i'm not that great of a boyfriend...i don't fool around enough with her and i'm too much of a drag to take to parties...i went to dinner with her last night and she told me that she goes to parties all the time, she never even mentioned them to me and i think she takes a guy named ben with her...what should i do? i like her but i don't want to be walked on in another relationship, i had enough of that with my ex! please give me feedback!
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Nothings wrong with meehs |Let the bodies hit the floor)
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Thursday, August 24th, 2006
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i told my friend that i still loved my ex-girlfriend, she decided to blab to her and now she's talking to me again...i want her and i don't know what to do, apparently she's still dating a guy that she dumped me for...i've never been this jealous or this depressed! i just want to die...it's as simple as that, i think about it a lot, medication doesn't work and this has made it worse...i can't kill myself because i know what that would do to my mom but i don't know what to do, if there's anyone with any ideas, please tell me, they are greatly need...
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Wednesday, June 21st, 2006
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i haven't been on here in years...things are going good. i have a girl that i'm crazy about, she knows who she is but i've been busy so she probably thinks i hate her, i just don't know what to say lately, i'm exhausted all the time and i sleep like 15 hours a day...i don't really do anything anymore, just watch t.v. and talk on msn whenever i'm awake :S...well, i'll be back on later to write some more...if you read anything other than this blog, that was 3 YEARS AGO or so, lol...
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My emotions are tearing me the fuck apart. I found something out last night, it turns out that my girlfriend had a miscarriage on Sunday. She wanted to tell me but she didn't know what I would say or do. That was a bunch of bullshit because she knows I want to have kids. I know that stupid but hey. The reason I'm fuckd up right now is because I'm both happy and sad. I'm happy that I'm not going to be daddy at the age of sixteen but that also the reason I'm sad. It's confusing, I know, that's why I'm being torn apart. God, life can throw some fuckd up shit at you sometimes.
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Saturday, March 1st, 2003
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| Time: | 7:47 am. |
| Mood: |  depressed. |
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Bridget, you were right. I am missing out on a good friendship, but you've only called me twice in the month we haven't talked, that's all. So in a way, you didn't care about our friendship either.
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Thursday, February 27th, 2003
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Well you know what fucked up about the whole thing is that you said you don't want to date me because I'm such a good friend but you've known Randy longer. That's what really pisses me off. You have to be friends if you want a good relationship. I'm really glad you're happy, but it does hurt. I've wanted to be with you since the 8th grade and Randy spends 3 months with you and you go out with him. I had never felt so bad the night I found out. Especially since it was a friend that told me and not you. God, Randy could have told me but he didn't. It just kind of hurt me. I'm sorry for making you made, I'll try to come in on Saturday if I can, if not call me, please. Bye
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Monday, February 24th, 2003
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I haven't been on this in awhile and most of the people I know don't use this anymore but hey. I really need help. I'm dating a girl named, let's call her Kay and I like her and all, we've been friends for almost two years now and we dated most of that time but the problem comes with my best friend. At least I still think we're friends. I've been in love with her since the eighth grade and I just recently stopped talking to her. That's because she has a boyfriend and it just really hurts to talk to her. It's been a month or so since we last talked. I'm trying to get over her but I can't, it's been a month and my feeling are still the same. I feel bad for dating Kay while my heart belongs to someone else. I need help. Anyone who understands what I've just said, please give me your advice. PLEASE!!!! HELP!!!!!
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Nothings wrong with meeh |Let the bodies hit the floor)
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Wednesday, April 3rd, 2002
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don't know why i'm even writing in this. it's been so damn long, i have no life anymore, i continue to fuck things up with bridget. the only good thing is that i finally got laid, but i can't find anyone else that remotely likes me anymore. hey fuck it, i'm gone, bye.
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Tuesday, December 18th, 2001
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i met the most incredible girl. she is so sweet and i love being with her. she makes me feel like i'm a king and she is my queen. i have only felt this way once and i never thought i would this way again. i don't know what i would do if i was to lose her.
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Friday, November 9th, 2001
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Hi. I haven't written in this for a long time. Let's see what's happened my girlfriend broke up with me for a gay guy (Kristi, I talk about another one later). I found out that that gives you a lot of confidence with finding another girlfriend. Cried over that for a little bit then I met another girl that was really sweet. I started liking her and I asked her out, she said yes but with doing that I fucked up a lot of things with a really good friend so I broke up with her. Then my only grandma had a stroke, dad got fired a day after that and still hasn't found another. Then a week ago one of my friends die in a car crash. I was really good friends with her sister and I didn't even go to the funeral. I just couldn't so I stayed home and cried. I miss her so much but I know that I have to get used to not talking to her. The bad thing is I still think she'll be the one calling when the phone rings. Enough of that, I wish my friends weren't so abnormal but hey I can't talk, look at me. I know she'll hate me talking about her but what the hell. She's the one that doesn't care about anything. I just wish she knew how i really felt about her and I wish she could see what I see. Unfortunately, she won't ever feel that way about herself. I really care about her and I've said that a lot but I just never showed it because I really dumb when it comes to her. Well, I guess i'll go and my friend better be happy that I did this. Bye.....
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Saturday, October 13th, 2001
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How to start? I got dumped, lost a friend and found a really sweet girl. I don't know what she thinks of me and in a way I don't care if it is bad or good. I still like this girl but it's cool because she doesn't want a boyfriend. She is a really great friend and I know she would make a great girlfriend she just don't see it. I know she will get mad at me for talking about her but she'll never stop me. I just hopes she talks to me after she reads this and if she does tell you know who hi for me and ask if I can have her # so I can call. Well I got to get off now. I'll hopefully get to write on monday. Bye!!
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Sunday, September 30th, 2001
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Wednesday, September 19th, 2001
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| Subject: | Hello |
| Time: | 7:16 pm. |
| Mood: |  confused. | | Music: | Slipknot "Left Behind". |
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Hi. Lets see what there's to write. I'm coming up on my 2 month anniversary in two weeks. My friend is still in CAPS but I will get to see her this weekend if her bitch of a mom will let me. My friend's dad is fighting for custody and I hope he wins. What really sucks is that the friend that's in CAPS is that she is the only person I tell everything and I mean it. So since she is not there to talk to I take it out on everyone else. For proof talk to Devilish_Grin, she'll tell you. I get really confused when it comes to girls. I know for a fact that I like my g-friend, but when it comes to this other girl at school I just get really happy and I just wish I could be with her even if it was for a day. I can't understand it. Well, Got to go. See y'all later. I'll try come back now.
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Monday, September 10th, 2001
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A little bit has happened since I last wrote. Well, let's see I had my 1 month anniversary, but didn't get to celebrate with my girlfriend because she got grounded for running away. And I found out that one of my friends ended up in the hospital for o.d.ing on pills. That was sometime last week or so. Then another friend was in the hospital over this weekend and I got to stay at the hospital with her. That about it. I don't really have anything else to write, so until next time. LIVE LONG AND PROSPER!!!!
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Monday, August 27th, 2001
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Last night I was so stupid. I was talking to my g/f and I kept blowing her off. I really like her and I don't know why I do this to her. I love everything about her. She is just really special to me and I hurt her so much. I don't understand myself sometimes. It seems that I always hurt the ones I care about. It really sucks because I mad her so mad that now she won't talk to me. I tried to apologize to her today but she just ran by me. I understand that she gets mad that I talk about her body and that I act like looks are the only thing matters. That is not true. I will never believe that. I just do it a lot because she always is putting herself down and for some reason when she does it hurts me in the process. In my eyes she is the most beautiful thing I ever seen and what makes her that way to me is her personality and how strong of a person she is. That is what I see in her but she doesn't know that or just doesn't listen when I tell her. I just want to say one other thing. I have been friends with her for awhile no and I just hope that we can get through this because I don't want to lose her. I know she doesn't want a b/f, but if I can't be that I at least want to be her friend. Well, I'm going to go. Bye.... Bear
p.s......If your reading this (you know who you are) I just want to say I'm sorry to you and every word I wrote, I meant.
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Wednesday, August 22nd, 2001
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God, today was a good day and a bad one. I ran into a girl that I went out with and it's one of those "I hate you, you hate me" things now. She was following me around after my 6th period. She was being all loud saying that she only went out with me because of my voice. That was the bad part. The good part was that during lunch, I got done early so I went to walk around and the asshole I was talking about the other day was walking the other way so I rammed my shoulder into him. That was so funny to see him literally fly into the lockers. Either he jumped into the lockers or he doesn't want to show fear. All I have to say was that was the hi-light of my day. That and seeing this girl named Bri in shorts and kind of a tight t-shirt. I'm going to go now. I sure hope that my friend is happy and doesn't get mad at what I wrote. Good Bye y'all!........J/K
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Nothings wrong with meeh |Let the bodies hit the floor)
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Monday, August 20th, 2001
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Why the fuck did school have start today? I hate a lot of people that go to my school. There is this one bitch that I could kill, but I'll live that to someone else. Then there's asshole in my 6th per. that I would love to beat the shit out of but I'm not going to start the year off with a bad record. Remember, "These are the most important years of are life". We've all heard that before. You think after awhile the adults would realize that we aren't paying that much attention to them. I don't see why they don't back off. I'm going to go call people and complain about today. Bye everybody that reads these entries.
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Monday, August 13th, 2001
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I had to get a new lj. Somebody had the same name so now I have this one. Little_Emotional_Fucker, kinda describes me perfectly. Well, so far I have a g/f and the bad thing is that there is another girl I like more. I just don't want to hurt my g/f. She is really sweet to me and she is extremely beautiful in my eyes. Now there is this rule at my house, that if I ever want to do anything outside the house I have to do all the chores. I had to mow the backyard today. I just wish that I could live in the darkness for the rest of my life. I don't think that will happen though. Well, I got to get off now. So I'll get on some other time. Bye everybody.
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